"From now till forever..."
Or thankfully not forever. I had a headache a little earlier from saying goodbye to too many people at once, with all the unreality of knowing this is the last time for a long time, and not being able to feel it except as a drop of the heart into the stomach. Or the ankle. For the first time I am truly afraid.
And it's just a matter of heading into the unknown, unfamiliar, and wanting desparately to succeed; to do really, really well. To not go at all.
ah, I am a coward at heart. i am afraid
in answer to your question, Arthur, I hope to develop both wisdom and compassion through this, and so feel deeply and act properly. And to have courage, even if that means no more than stepping out when I fear to go.
So I go.
Salaam, friends.
you call yourself a coward and yet you proceed onward. courage is not the lack of fear but the overcoming of fear. no man (or woman) who does not experience fear can truly be called courageous, they are simply lacking inhibition. you, however, are brave and courageous, for not only do you proceed on into the unknown away from family and friends, but you do so despite (in spite of, emphasis on "spite") fear. i expect God will bless you for such courage.
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Posted by: sarah :) at May 31, 2004 05:39 PM